12.28.2011

Are There Two of Me?

Cloning.  It’s never been something that I have agreed with…

Until now.baby clone

I need a clone. Please, please, pretty please with a cherry on top?

Actually I need more than 1… heck, I even need more than 2!

I need one to be at work for me in TX… one to be in TN to clean the house and buy groceries, another in TN to hang with the fiancĂ©… one in MI to hang with family, another in MI to meet up with friends, another in MI to be a wedding coordinator… so that would be… 6 clones?

And that would leave me… lucky number 7… free to be selfish and just tend to myself. 

All I would need is a day or two where I didn’t have to worry about pleasing anyone or doing anything that I didn’t want to do.  And maybe I would finally have time to do the little things like… oh, I don’t know… get my hair cut or my eyebrows waxed?

Sigh… even a few hours like that sound so heavenly at the moment.

So my New Year’s resolution?  Be a mad scientist and create clone selves that last just 24hrs or so.  Anyone want to fund me?

12.21.2011

Math Class

End of the year number crunching!

Let’s do some math shall we?

Between July 27th (when I started the new job) and December 31st there are 158 days on the calendar.  Of those…

102 were/will be spent in TX for work
17 were spent in Grand Rapids, MI visiting family & friends
7 were spent in Colorado Springs, CO visiting Lacey & the boys
5 were spent in Tampa, FL for the SGK 3 Day
3 were spent in Nashville, TN for the fiancé's birthday bash

…and a grand total of 24 days were spent at my home sweet home in TN!

Now I have about 10 months to plan a wedding and people keep telling me it’s no big deal and they planned their weddings in much less time…

BUT…

How many of you out there have planned a wedding in one state {MI} while living in another state {TN} while working in yet another state {TX} with over 1,000 miles between them?  Those are the only people I want to hear the“It’s no big deal!” from!

I have been told planning a wedding is stressful and I’m definitely already feeling the stress!  But I’m not going to worry about the little things {ask me if I did 11 months from now} and just focus on the big things… if we have a ceremony site and a minister we will still be married.. and that’s the only thing that is important.

12.17.2011

*News <3 Flash*

We interrupt this epic fail of a blog {ie: my months of non-posts} to bring you an EPIC news flash!

I’m ENGAGED!!

It happened one week ago today and we couldn’t be happier!  We were actually in Nashville, TN to celebrate his birthday by attending the Titans vs. Saints game {am I the best GF ever or what?} and I was the one who ended up with the best gift!

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Everything is still very new but we DO have a date and a ceremony location picked out.  That being said there are several hundred other things we still need to work out!  The next 10 months or so promise to be ridiculously packed but I can’t wait to see everything fall into place!

11.27.2011

3 {three} Months

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Three months?  Really?

Has it been that long since I last posted?

It must be true because the almighty internets never lie… right?

I could write a post filled with excuses as to why I haven’t posted… but in all honesty I’ve just been out there living my life. 

I’ve been to Florida once, Colorado once, Michigan twice, and Texas a ton. I’ve walked 60 miles in 3 Days and not moved from the couch for 24 hours.  I’ve spent many weekends with the person I love, a few surrounded by the love of family, and yet another surrounded by 10,000 Women of Faith.

So much has happened in the past fast 3 months that they deserve many more posts than just this one… I promise I will be sharing more very soon!

8.23.2011

Please Mr. Postman

I have a couple trivia questions for you all today…

What does every 3-Day walker love more than anything else? 

Answer: Cheerleaders!

What is a close second to that? 
Answer: Mail!

This is my 4th 3-Day and every year the cards and letters I get from friends and family help me keep my mind off my aching, blistered feet and focused on the reason I need to go out and walk 20 more miles the next day.  A little encouragement really goes a long way!

With just 66 days to go until the Tampa 3 Day, it’s time to get your letter writing skills polished up.  You can start sending mail to your favorite 3-Day walker today!

Send letters to:

3-Day for the Cure Post Office
ATTN: (INSERT NAME OF PARTICIPANT)
PO Box 40013
St. Petersburg, FL 33743-0013

Envelopes only, please. No boxes or large packages. Mail must be postmarked no later than October 18 in order to ensure delivery at the 3-Day Camp Post Office.

8.22.2011

Love You Through It

To all my friends and family who were there to love me through the most challenging time in my life…  Especially to you, Mom & Dad… Thank you.

I’m Gonna Love You Through It–Martina McBride

8.21.2011

Why I Do What I Do: SOCS

We are only 10 short weeks away from this year’s Tampa Susan G. Komen 3-Day for the Cure!  I have so much to do… from training to fundraising to gathering up all the necessary gear. (to do: order new socks asap!)

Yesterday the team had a fundraiser at Appearances Hair Salon in Johnson City, TN.  The 2 fabulous stylists donated their day to cut solely for donations – they are two truly amazing and fabulous people!  During the course of the day, we had a variety of customers but the one that touched us all the most was a little girl of maybe 10 years… 

As she was leaving with her mom, we asked if there was anyone they would like their donation to be in memory or in honor of.  The mom thought for a moment and then looked to her daughter who said a name immediately. We wrote down the name and they started out the door.  Suddenly the girl stopped and took off her little backpack.  Mom looked at her with curiosity and we all watched as she took out her little wallet and proceeded to fold up her money and put it in our donation jar.

As those of us left in the salon wiped away our tears, I was struck by how this little girl understood.  She knew what cancer was, and she personally knew someone going through it… Children shouldn’t have to know something like that and yet too many of them do.

It’s just one more reason why I find it hard to say no to the fundraising, training, and walking 60 miles in 3 days with feet covered in blisters…

This was my 5 minute Stream of Consciousness Sunday post. It’s five minutes of your time and a brain dump. Want to try it? Here are the rules…

  • Set a timer and write for 5 minutes only.

  • Write an intro to the post if you want but don’t edit the post. No proofreading or spellchecking. This is writing in the raw.

  • Link up by clicking on the button below!#SOCsunday

8.19.2011

Lucky Me

VersatilebloggerLucky me!  I received a blogging award!  Now I really can say I don’t think this award is deserved as of late because… well because I haven’t been blogging… but I would like to send out a big Thank You to Jen over at Blenifer Uncorked for the award! She won the award and passed it along to 15 of her favorite blogs and as the rules of the award go…

The rules for accepting The Versatile Blogger award are:
1. Thank the person who gave the award and link back to them in your post.
2. Share 7 things about yourself.
3. Pass this award along to 15 recently discovered/favorite blogs.

Here are your 7 fabulous Friday facts about yours truly…

  1. I have been a very bad blogger as of late because of 3 reasons… the first being the NEW job!  I fly in or out every Wednesday and between flights I work 80 hours and go back to the terribly slow hotel internet and then have a glorious 6 days off between to fit in time for the other 2 things…

  2. One of which is training for the Tampa 3-Day!  I am so far behind on training because of travel it’s futile at this point to try and make up all the miles BUT I will train all I can in the next 10 weeks and have a smile on my face through every blister because kicking cancer’s a$$ is so worth it! (fun little factoid of the day… the first 4 3-Day events in 2011 have raised over $15 Million towards finding a cure and there are still 10 events to go!)

  3. Which leads me to the other fabulous thing that has been taking up my blogging time… a certain Southern Gentleman.  He’s sweet, caring, thoughtful, supportive, generous… and most importantly… he makes me happy. :) (yup, just went public with that one)

  4. DSCN2681I am getting very close to having to purchase peanut butter and laundry detergent for the very fist time in my life.  Yes you read that right… I am used to a fully stocked shelf at the “Grandpa Store” that is open anytime I need to replenish my emotional or peanut butter needs!  Love you and miss you Grandpa!  I need to plan a trip home soon! kiddens

  5. I have 2 “kiddens” named Gilbert Sullivan (aka:Goose the Moose, Gilly Goo) and Moses Jean (aka: Chloe, Mokes) 

  6. I was raised in The Mitten but am now a transplant living down in the Appalachian mountains of The Volunteer State!

  7. I am a cancer survivor of a little over 2 years now.  I’m doing everything I can to fight back and am just waiting for the magical 5 year mark where I can say I am 100% cancer free and cured!

So there you have it – my 7 fabulous facts!  And here are some of my favo

rite bloggers for you to check out…

Coconutter Strutters

Dr. Grumpy

Dream Big. Stamp Often

DUTCHbeingME

Filling Our Bucket

Following Him

iHeartOrganizing

Hines-Sight Blog

In This Wonderful Life

Meanderings of a 3-Day Mom

My Big Girl Pants

Not Quite Legally Blonde

On Joyful Wings

Starving, Insatiable

Soaring on Wings

8.07.2011

Once Upon A Time… (SOCS)

Once upon a time… I blogged solely to spread information as efficiently as possible and it turned into a place to dump my thoughts more often than not.  Lately this blog has been neglected as I focus on getting things back in order in my life. 

There has been less time spent on a computer {for fun} and more time spent in airports, airplanes, and hotels with bad internet connections.  I’ve been in Texas, Georgia, South Carolina, North Carolina and Tennessee since I last posted...  Spent about 8 hours on planes, nearly 12 hours in airports, and 16+ hours in cars.  I’m tired and my body aches trying to fight off something I probably picked up in the recirculated air on one of the planes.

But I’m happier and more stress free than I’ve been in such a long time. 

I will take the delays and endless hours spent reading in planes and hotel rooms over the crazy stress-filled existence I have lived since January any day.

Once upon a time I was hopeful, carefree, and happy… I’m finally getting back to that place once again!

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“We can only appreciate the miracle of a sunrise if we have waited in the darkness” – Unknown

<- Sunrise over Waco, TX

The Rack Pack in Atlanta, GA –>

We walk because we must.  We are strong because the journey demands it.  Together in body and united in spirit, we lay down our footsteps for this generation and the next.  This is our promise: a world without breast cancer.

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This was my 5 minute Stream of Consciousness Sunday post. It’s five minutes of your time and a brain dump. Want to try it? Here are the rules…

  • Set a timer and write for 5 minutes only.
  • Write an intro to the post if you want but don’t edit the post. No proofreading or spellchecking. This is writing in the raw.
  • Link up by clicking on the button below!

#SOCsunday

7.25.2011

Kick In The Booty!

pink flowerI logged into my 3 Day participant center to read…

95 days until the event!”

What?! That is just 3 short months away!  And then I found this…

“On July 28, a link will appear below to enter online check-in. Online check-in will be open from July 28 to October 24.”

Yikes!  When online check in opens it’s business time!  When you check in, you have to have your fundraising minimum raised or put up your own personal credit card for the remaining amount.  The 3 Day takes serious commitment to not only training but also to fundraising.

I am currently just $950 short of my fundraising minimum which may sound like a lot, but I've already raised $1350 toward the $2300 goal!  I know I can reach that goal but I just need to get focused. 

So this is me… focusing

I’m asking your help to get me there!  Consider sponsoring me $1 per mile for a total donation of $60 or... If you can’t spare $60, please consider a donation in an amount you can give. To donate by credit or debit card, just visit www.the3day.org/goto/christina2011 there you have the option to split your donation into 4 easy, tax-deductible, payments.

Each year the Susan G. Komen 3 Day for the Cure events raise $50+ million for cancer research. Cancer research is expensive, the current treatments are expensive, the screening tests to catch the disease early are expensive... but if the money donated leads to just ONE life saved, that is priceless.

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7.24.2011

SOCS: A Weighty Issue

I’ve noticed around the blogosphere that everyone seems to be talking about their weight these days.  Perhaps it’s because the extreme heat around the nation has us all reaching for body revealing shorts, tanks, and swimsuits on a daily basis?  It’s definitely hard to ignore a few extra pounds with so little fabric. losinit

Even though I haven’t been writing about it, weight has been on my mind as well.  I’ve gained weight since I took the job here in Tennessee because of a whole lot of stress and bad eating habits.  There have been many, many days where I haven’t had any food until heading home after a 12 hour day… this excludes coffee of course.  And if I did get a chance to grab some food it was quick junk in a drive through on my way to/from meetings.  It has been horrible for my body and I feel horrible as a result.  It isn’t that I’m feeling down about how I look but more that I am feeling in my health.  My energy levels are down and I just feel blah. 

Now that I have left job, I want to refocus on getting back to feeling well.  With the new job there are new twists… I will be traveling 16-18 days out of every month and we all know eating out that much has it’s challenges.  I just need to make better choices when on the days I am home I need to spend some time cooking at home.  It might be a good time to knock off some of my 101 in 1001 physical health goals?  Of course the 3 Day training focus should help some too!

To all of you out there who are going through the some weight struggles, I wish you good luck and happy losing!

….

This was my 5 minute Stream of Consciousness Sunday post. It’s five minutes of your time and a brain dump. Want to try it? Here are the rules…

  • Set a timer and write for 5 minutes only.
  • Write an intro to the post if you want but don’t edit the post. No proofreading or spellchecking. This is writing in the raw.
  • Link up by clicking on the button below!
#SOCsunday

7.22.2011

Blisters for Boobies!

Have you noticed the little mileage tracker creeping up over there on the sidebar?  That means I am *officially* in Susan G Komen 3 Day training mode!  I am finishing the 2nd week of a 16 week training plan with 10 miles tomorrow. 

Yes, I said 10 miles tomorrow.

I will be walking with my team for approximately 3 hours starting at the lovely hour of 6am on a Saturday to beat this crazy heat.  All in the name of boobies everywhere.

I am no stranger to this event.  This will be my 4th year walking the 60 mile journey. I’m no stranger to walking in heat indexes of 100+ degrees or temps that dip into the 30’s. I’ve seen team members go down with mild dehydration and I’ve seen them spend hours in the med tent being taped up.  The 3 Day is no joke and the 500 miles of training prepares you for that.

But one little problem has plagued me every year.  Blisters.  And I’m not talking a little tiny bump on the side of my toe. I’m talking heel encompassing, foot swallowing, toe engulfing blisters.  By the end of each event, my feet are so sore I hobble around like I’m 100 years old. 

I have tried everything… band aids, blister bandages, Moleskin, Duct tape, Body Glide, powder, Vaseline, soaking my feet in Epsom salts, socks, different socks, and then two pairs of socks at the same time, new shoes, more new shoes…  It doesn’t

matter.  My feet just blister.

I have learned a few tricks along the way… like wrapping my 2 last toes on each foot with Meijer fabric bandages to prevent little tiny blisters on the pads of those toes.  And that moleskin just refuses to stay put on my heels unless I use fabric {not paper} medical tape to encase the moleskin.

So far this year… {knock on wood}… I haven’t gotten any blisters from training.  It is too early to declare victory just yet, but I have to admit I am pretty excited by this lack of development!  Tomorrow’s 10-miler {the first of the season} should be a pretty good test.

But even if they do pop up again this year I will cheerfully wrap them up and remind myself…

7.19.2011

Women of Faith

Imagine my delight when I opened up my email this morning to read this…

“Hello Book Sneeze Friend!

We have good news! You have been selected as a blogger for the Women of Faith event. Details on receiving your registrations, attending the event, and posting your blog posts are below…”

That’s right my dears, yours truly will be headed to the Women of Faith conference in Charlotte, NC in September and I will be blogging and tweeting all the lovely details right here!

Why is this so exciting you ask?  Because as their website says, it’s a place to “Escape from the everyday… and be refreshed, encouraged and inspired. Because the God who loves you can do far more than you can ever Imagine.”  I’ve been needing that in my life as I’ve found myself stumbling and bumbling around lately.  What’s even better is Mom will be joining me as we gain inspiration and encouragement from the likes of Natalie Grant {love!}, Mary Mary, Karen Kingsbury, Luci Swindoll and so many others! 

Interested?  Then check out the website and register to attend the event nearest you.  With 28 different events around the country there is bound to be one nearby!  Or… come join me at the Charlotte event!  I’d love to meet you!

A huge THANK YOU to the organizers of the Women Of Faith conferences and the Booksneeze blogger program!

7.18.2011

Michigan Monday

A picture tribute to my recent trip back to the Mitten over 4th of July…
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4th of July Oooohs and Ahhhhs!

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Grand Haven, MI


“The longest road out is the shortest road home”
Irish Proverb

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7.17.2011

SOCS: I Suck At Blogging

The timer is set and I am here to admit to you all that I have been neglecting this little blog o’ mine!  See I went back home to visit my family and then have had a completely hellish week and… well I’ve been too wrapped up in my own self to share anything with you all!  I’ve thought about some posts but haven’t actually done them… but hey, it’s the thought that counts right?

So to do some very quick updates for you all…

I finally went to my Endo for my 2 year check-in.  I was nervous as h-e-double- hockey-sticks.  But turns out I had no need to be. My tumor marker came back in negatory glory and my neck ultrasound turned up nothing suspicious except a missing lymph node. {note: I am in fact missing a cervical node as a result of checking for mets during surgery so that is normal for me.}  So I got a pass for no doctor visits for 8 months although I do have to visit the lab vampires twice between now and then and they changed my meds…again… because now I am to hyper which could explain some anxiety, sleeplessness, and hair loss I’ve been experiencing.

The visit back to G. Rap was fantabulous… I will be blogging about that in all it’s glory in another completely separate post.

I have just 5… count ‘em 5… days left at my current job.  I am very happy with my decision to move on even after just 6 short months of being there.  It is not a healthy environment for me.  So where am I going and what am I going to do?  I am NOT moving back to Michigan at this time.  I like it here in East TN.  I AM all set with a new gig.  One that involves consulting. And travel. And I am super excited about it!  The job may also require a completely separate post coming up!

And there is another exciting development going on in my life…

Annnnnd there is the buzzer… no I’m completely serious… I did not mean to have that last sentence be a cliffhanger! I  guess if you all want to know what the end of that sentence will bring, you will just have to stay tuned?

This was my 5 minute Stream of Consciousness Sunday post. It’s five minutes of your time and a brain dump. Want to try it? Here are the rules…

  • Set a timer and write for 5 minutes only.
  • Write an intro to the post if you want but don’t edit the post. No proofreading or spellchecking. This is writing in the raw.
  • Link up by clicking on the button below!
#SOCsunday

7.12.2011

Better Than I

Better Than I by Joy Williams

I thought I did what's right
I thought I had the answer
I thought I chose the surest road
But that road brought me here
So I put up a fight
And told You how to help me
And just when I had given up
The truth is coming clear, for...

You know...Better Than I
You know...the way
I've let go...the need to know why
'Cause You know Better Than I

If this has been a test
I cannot see the reason
But maybe knowing, I don't know
Is part of getting thru
I try to do what's best
Find faith has made it easy
To see the best thing I can do
Is put my faith in You, for...

I saw one cloud, and thought it was the sky
I saw a bird and thought that I could follow
But it was You who taught them to fly
If I let You reach me...
Will You teach me? For...

You know...Better Than I
You know...the way
I've let go...the need to know why
I'll take what answers You supply
'Cause You know Better Than I

7.01.2011

Happy 4th!

Ok I know it’s not the 4th yet but I am about 4 hours into my 12 hour drive home – that puts me in Eastern Kentucky currently – and I don’t know when I will be blogging again!  I’m heading back to Michigan to visit friends and family for the 4th aaand I get to visit the lab vampires my Endo friend. Yup that is super exciting.

What is exciting is that this is on my hotel room number plate:

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Oh if you only knew how much I looove fireworks! Here is some evidence… notice the supremely goofy face as I go to light the little fountain…

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But first there are the 12 loooooong hours of travel in front of me. Sigh… can someone please invent that teleportation device soon?  I guess if I could teleport I would miss out on cool scenery like this…
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Oh well.. I need to wrap this up and get some rest for the road in front of me!  Have a safe and happy 4th everyone!

Happy 4th of July!

6.30.2011

Appalachian Lite?

So remember this post and this post a while back on some of the cultural differences I’ve encountered down here? 

DSCN2645I no longer find them so different or strange.  In fact…

I say “Appa-latch-ian” instead of “appa-lay-shun”.  I have caught myself saying the phrases “I don’t care to…” and “I appreciate ya!” more times than I care to admit.  I have even said something like “I’m going to THE Wal-Mart.”  And many, many times I have use the word “y’all.”  I’ve blessed people’s hearts and I’ve tried fried green tomatoes and soup beans.  I’ve even gone to music on the square and listened to some bluegrass.  And more times than I can count I have been accused of having a southern accent by my Yankee friends and family. {I still think I don’t have one}

Things I haven’t done… yet…

    • said “the Interstate” or “the four lane” – it’s still the highway to me!

    • attempted to make good ole southern biscuits, white gravy or fried chicken in my home

    • eaten anything pickled {ex: pickled pigs feet}

    After just 6 short months of living here I realize that I am somewhat adapting.

    But..

    I still miss Meijer!

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    6.29.2011

    Words That Heal

    If my doctor told me I had only six minutes to live, I wouldn't brood. I'd type a little faster.
    ~Isaac Asimov

    I was reading this article today about how writing through a serious illness can be cathartic.  I wholeheartedly agree.

    I may have started this blog under the guise of keeping friends and family informed about my progress through surgery and treatment but it evolved into so much more. 

    I started with just a few posts that were more factual than feeling.  Soon enough I was talking about the confusion, pain, fear, loneliness, anxiety… all the things that I couldn’t say out loud when asked “how are you doing?”  Those who asked such a question received an ever cheery smile and the upbeat “I’m doing good…”, “Feeling much better thanks…”, or “Everything is going really well…”

    Truth is sometimes it wasn’t all hunky-dory.  Truth is having cancer is never ok.

    I feel like my writing through my cancer journey was honest even if it wasn’t always light hearted.  I also think that writing about it was the cheapest form of therapy I could have found {with the exception of Gilda’s Club of course!}.  It helped me organize my thoughts and feelings and really reflect… and now that I’m on the other side it helps me to remember things completely lost to cancer brain.

    I’ve realized that even though I started this blog for my friends and family, it isn’t about who reads it, its about the life I’m able to live because I wrote it.

    Fill your paper with the breathings of your heart.
    ~William Wordsworth

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    Live your life from your heart. Share from your heart. And your story will touch and heal people's souls. 
    ~Melody Beattie

    6.28.2011

    Pepsi or Coke?

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    At work we have two soda machines that distribute various Pepsi products.  The price for a 20 oz bottle has always been $1.25 until the most recent fill up. 

    Since then…

    The price for a 20oz bottle = $99.95

    I’ve always been a Pepsi girl but with these prices I may have to switch to Coke!

    So what do you say?

    Coke or Pepsi?

    6.21.2011

    Well It’s Official…

    I have resigned from my management position here effective July 22nd.

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    There are many reasons behind this decision some of which I am not prepared to discuss just yet.  Some of which I might never discuss on le bloggy blog.

    I am not certain where I am going or what I am going to do just yet.  That is such an odd feeling.  I’ve always known where I was going before I went.

    Don’t get me wrong, I have ideas floating around… this girl has no shortage of those puppies… but so many of them are in the long range category. I just have to start doing the little things to get the momentum going.  And above all I need to follow my heart and live my dreams.  Life is too short not to.

    Stay tuned dear readers… its about to get interesting around here!

    Believe with all of your heart that you will do what you were made to do.
    -Orison Swett Marden

    6.18.2011

    Saturday Seven

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    Trying something new today… the Saturday Seven. Just seven random things I’ve been thinking about this week most of which would not make up an entire blog post by themselves but are worth sharing or at least I think they are!  Link up if you want to play along!
    One. In honor of ones, I realized its been a while since I’ve done an update to my 101 in 1001 list.  So here are a few items I’ve crossed off and some I’m still working on… 
    • lose 25 lbs – sorry to say I’m still in the working on it phase
    • Pay off car & credit cards – working on it! Only 4 more car payments!
    • Go to a live musical – tickets bought for Beauty & The Beast at the Barter next week!
    • Local restaurants – new one to add: Cranberry Thistle, Jonesborough, TN
    • Create a calendar to track birthdays – downloaded a template to help me do this… just haven’t filled it out yet!
    • Grow my hair 5in below my shoulders – currently at 4 inches
    • Get a massage & get a pedicuredone on Feb 19th in Gatlinburg!
    • Send mail to someone once a month – April, May, June: check!
    • Read a book starting with every letter of the alphabet – new letters claimed: Bountiful Container, Outlive Your Life.
    • Read a book in one day: The Final Summit
    • Read 101 books – new to add: Wasted, The Secret, Grits Guide To Life, 33 Ways to Tell Your Fortune (that makes 17)
    • Watch 26 movies {alphabet} & 10 classic movies I’ve never seen– working on this with help from Netflix
    Two. I slept in until 8am for the first time in months. Yes, I said months. And yet I’m still exhausted… maybe it takes more than one night to get rid of sleep deprivation?
    Three.  My horoscope for today reads: “Your house of career is undergoing a slowaries-0 and profound change as you shift from one way of working to another.  You’ll have great potential and options as Uranus in your house of self combines with Jupiter in your house of money to bring a delicious set of planetary helpers.  Venus and the Sun in your house of words could help you write your future.”  This is more scary true than you know… more to come.
    Four.  Remember the apartment debacle?  I still haven’t heard boo from the management company after they swore they would “get on it” to “rectify the situation.”  This weekend will be devoted to formulating the next line of attack.  I gave them ample time to fix things. They chose not to. Now it’s on.
    Five.  Stress has been crazy lately… combined with the sleep deprivation and you get my body attacking itself… again. You can read more about that here, here, and here. Last night I noticed my parotid was pulling one of these again.  And the other symptoms of Sjogren’s are back as well… dry eyes, dry mouth, aching joints, brain fog, dry skin, fatigue.  Must manage stress to prevent flares.
    Six.  My plan for this weekend is to nap and to heal… and to clean my house and do laundry. Sigh…  where did the maid go? 
    Seven.  I made good on my promise.  I have tests and an endo appointment scheduled for early July.  Praying that the fears are all in my head and I get only good news.

    6.17.2011

    Grow A Pair

    Apparently I have.

    Grown a “pair” that is.grow a pairSo many people have told me in the last oh 8 months that I have balls and they are impressed and that I’m brave.  Even though I’ve heard it for a while now I still don’t quite understand.

    Am I really that gutsy?

    I don’t really think so.  I just follow my heart… and sometimes my head… and I just go for it and I don’t look back.  There is no room for regret.

    Sometimes things work out and sometimes they don’t but at least I’ve tried.  Every experience teaches you something about yourself or someone else or about life in general and it shapes who you are. 

    Life is out there and all you have to do is live it.

    One can never consent to creep when

    one feels an impulse to soar.

    – Helen Keller

    6.15.2011

    Introspection

    The greatest use of life is to spend it for something that will outlast it.
    - William Jones

    DSCN2476That was the quote on my little flip calendar this morning.  Funny how I’ve had that calendar for years and years but this is the first time I’ve really taken notice of that saying.  Isn’t it funny how you can read things or hear things that hit at just the right moment.

    I’ve been doing a lot of introspection lately and this particular quote brought some anxieties surrounding certain issues to rest.  I haven’t yet made the vision boards I mentioned in my post a few days ago but the picture in my mind is becoming clearer every day. 

    Following your heart may not always be the easiest choice but its usually the best one.