Oooooooh Kaaaaaaay

I think I finally have my new computer up and running and all my old files transferred – whew!  That was a complete mess mostly because of no instructions and me not wanting to be patient. Still haven’t installed my photo transfer program but maybe i will attempt that this weekend…

Speaking of the weekend, I feel like I need to take a deep breath in prep for the coming month!  Just a sneak peek at what I have going on: Tastefully Simple Fundraiser, team meeting and event planning for future fundraisers, out of town scrapbooking weekend, trip to Florida to help out Grandma/pa (grandma broke her hip..), team fundraiser (while I’m in FL), event planning for a baby shower and birthdays, plus normal work and home stuff… and that brings us to the end of a too short month and the magical 24 weeks out point for the 3 Day!  I think I’m going to hit March feeling like a zombie.


30 Again

bday cake

I have officially decided that I am going to celebrate my 30th birthday again this year. 

In all honesty, this has nothing to do with vanity surrounding aging… just that my 30th birthday year was pretty much sucked into the big fat cancer vacuum.

It was less than a month after my 30th (April 12 for those of you who wish to send gifts/cards/monetary contributions) that i discovered “Bob” and my life was flipped upside down and inside out.  I went from being a happy, healthy, skinny, energetic, carefree 29yr old to a 30lb heavier surgical/nuclear medicine/endocrinology/ cancer patient diva who fights daily to get out of bed and stay awake for at least 12 hours while fighting “cancer brain” and trying to make sense of the world and to the world around her. I’m slowly getting my life back on track as well as my lab values…

As I was pondering the healthy happy lifestyle I had less than a year ago, it hit me that I haven’t had any consistency since moving into my new place… that its almost like I haven’t been able to settle into the new place and fit old routines into it.  Simply put, I was pretty consistent in cooking healthy meals, working out, my day and evening skincare regimen… Now I'm lucky if I remember to wash my face in the shower and run through taco bell on my way to hitting up my couch for an afternoon nap!

I think the next step in my recovery process has to be getting back into normal routines.  They will make me feel better mentally and physically and maybe, just maybe I can reclaim control the last 3 months of my 30th year.


New Computer!

So I finally got my new computer up and running… typing on it now thank you very much! BUT i’m having a heck of a time getting my files transferred from my old computer and to top it off i’m trying to learn how to use this Windows 7 concept… bear with me, its going to be a bit rocky!  But for those of you interested, here’s a pic of my new baby…its pretty in PINK of course!

new computer


Full Speed Ahead Fundraising!

Now that 2010 is fully upon us, (are some of you still recovering from the holidays like me?) fundraising for the Breast Cancer 3 Day is in FULL swing!  The team has about 1 event/month planned with lots of individual events planned along the way.  We have a big goal this year ~ we need about $15,000 minimum just for our walkers to participate.  In this economy, with Michigan being at 14% unemployment, raising $15,000 is a daunting task.  I’m confident we will raise that much if not more with everyone working together.  I’m already at $1,400 so just $900 more to go for my minimum!

So to kick start the 2010 fundraising we have the Crop for the Cure this weekend!  Friday and Saturday we will be scrapbooking to our hearts content all while raising money to fight cancer!  We have a fun filled weekend in store and I can’t wait to see how the fundraising side works out~ I'll fill you all in later!


25 Things I Hate About Facebook

Ok first I must say that I heart facebook.  I am totally addicted and need a 12 step program.  That being said, this video is totally hilarous…


Running On Empty

I don’t know what it is exactly but lately I've felt drained of any ounce of creativity or energy.  Ok the energy thing I get because I'm pretty sure my meds aren’t quite right yet but I think I should be able to reserve my right to still feel creative!  Maybe I'm just getting the winter blahs and if only the sun would come out tomorrow…  Maybe I just need to make a change in my life… but where/what?  Some things I have done to perk up my spirits in the past include:

  1. Redesigning a room in my house – not as fun when limited by apartment living but hey!
  2. Getting my hair cut and/or colored – currently contemplating auburn…hmmm
  3. Planning a vacation… now who to take with me?
  4. Buying lots of stuff – clothes mostly – a dangerous option but can be combined with #1 or #3 if you plan a trip to IKEA to buy stuff to redesign your house!
  5. Organize something – closet, books, scrapbooking stuff – you name it!  Can also be combined with 1, 3, & 4!

What would you suggest?


Seasons Change?

Please correct me if I’m wrong, but it is still winter right?  I mean I look out the window and i’m greeted by nothing but gray and white… the white being the inches and inches of snow on the ground…

Just thought I should check on this because the stores seem to have gotten winter confused with summer.  Ok yes, I understand spring break will be here soon but I find it slightly ridiculous to be greeted by shorts, bathing suits, and flip flops when I walk in a store in January.  There is no way you will get me to even think about trying those on for at least 3 months because a) the average daily temperature will not be above 30F until at least late April, b) being hypo my body temp is running low so I currently wear at least 3 layers at all times, and c) I am so pasty white and “fluffy” after a summer and fall spent as a cancer patient that I might get mistaken for the Stay Puft Marshmallow Man.

Too bad I need to find replacements for my black dress boots – my chosen foot attire of the winter because they go over the ankles and rarely get snow within them.  I hope they have more than flip flops and jelly shoes when I go tonight!


God Laughs

How does that saying go?  If you want to hear God laugh, tell him your plans…

I can remember being in high school and writing papers on what life would be like in 10 years.  I think mine always said something along the lines of married,  a kid or two (or three), singer/writer/artist/mother (insert career/dream-of-the-moment here). 

Looking back, the thing I find most interesting is that I always said I would be married and have at least one child by now and the career portion was more an afterthought and never the main focus.  Strangely enough, today the career I never thought too much about is completely solid and progressed faster than expected while the things I always wanted – marriage, kids – haven’t happened. 

Today I make many plans… for my employees, for events, to see friends and family… but I don’t find myself dreaming for myself much.  There aren’t too many “one day I will…” statements circulating in my heart.  Am I scared of hoping for something only to be filled with disappointment in the end?  It makes me think of the movie “Under the Tuscan Sun” in which Frances buys a villa with plans for a new life in mind and everything appears to go wrong.  In the movie, she is heartbroken until she realizes she has gotten everything she planned for, just not in the way she had imagined.

I think its time for me to start dreaming again, writing it down so its real and seeing where things leads me.  It might not be exactly how or where or what I plan but I am willing to bet that it will be exactly how or where or what it’s supposed to be.



Jumping on the bandwagon here and making a few resolutions… I guess some of them go hand in hand with my Good Riddance! post but here we go…

  • Get focused again on eating healthier, getting back on a training schedule, and dumping the poundage gained this past 6 mos.
  • Declutter the apartment, parting with unused and unneeded items.
  • Read at least 1 book per month.
  • Go out with the girlies for no other reason but fun at least once a month.
  • Define a budget and kick debts to the curb.
  • Be a kick butt 3 Day team captain with a super successful fundraising year.