I’ve Got A Feelin

“June 12th, 2009 – …My doctor was nearly certain - in fact said he would be "very surprised"- if my full pathology came back as anything but benign. 

We were both a little shocked when I went in to have my stitches out a week ago Friday and found that "Bob" had been sent to the Mayo Clinic for a second look. He said he would call me as soon as the reports from Mayo came back...

So that is basically how exactly 2 months after my 30th birthday, I got the phone call telling me I have cancer”

Today marks 2 years since I heard the words “You have cancer…” over that phone line.  It’s a day I will never forget...  A day that changed my life forever.

It seems like a lifetime ago but at the same time I know I’m not at that magical 5 years = cancer free mark yet.  It is probably why I have been dragging my feet to find a new endocrinologist and have my testing done.  I know I need to do that.  I know.  But I’m scared that there will be news I don’t want to hear.  That and Endos are notoriously prima donna like so meeting yet another one isn’t exactly high on my list.  I will make that appointment. I promise.

So how am I celebrating 2 years of survivorship?  I don’t know yet.  I’m thinking of sleeping in, reading a good book, watching a new movie, and heading down to get a Peanut Butter Dream to stick 2 tiny little birthday candles in. 

I’ll light those 2 little candles.  And while blowing them out I will make a little wish for all the dreams I’m holding in my heart.

Because as I said one year ago today…

“Today is a day to celebrate every moment, to appreciate the little things, to stop and smell the roses, to live life to the fullest, to shout it from the rooftops! 

I am here, I am healthy, I am loved, and I have a very long life in front of me.

For today, I am pushing all of that away and am remembering that today is worth celebrating because life is worth celebrating!  Life in all its ups and downs is simply a gift every single day. 

Today Every day is my most precious gift”

Ever Wonder?

What goes through the mind of a newly diagnosed 20-30’s something cancer patient? Here’s your chance to get a peek into that crazy upside-down world. Discovery Health Channel is showing Crazy Sexy Cancer a documentary by Kris Carr. Kris started shooting her film after getting diagnosed with a rare and incurable stage IV cancer. Her journey to a place of acceptance and her outlook is amazing, but she also shows those more tender and vulnerable moments that we go through.

I highly recommend you check it out or DVR it for later. You can watch it tonight at 8pm or 10pm or Sunday at noon on Discovery Health.

Overwhelmed

Sometimes all the information, symptoms, appointments, medications, what ifs... it just becomes too much. Having cancer is sometimes like having a second job. You make spreadsheets to keep track of your bloodwork, you need an extra planner to keep track of all your "meetings", and you have to schedule people to help you get everything done... of course all this has to be done while keeping up the "normal" life too. You lose control over your life because you are on cancer's schedule. So how can you regain some control in those moments where you are overwhelmed? Hit up the office supply store! Oh and grab your current favorite uplifting book! :)